arh..i didnt sleep last night..
i was..tired..but i cant sleep..
i didnt want to go online..
so i just went out..like 3am in the morning..
and walked..gave me ALOT of time to think..
and for me..thinking is bad..especially when im so sick..
running a 39 degree fever right now..coughing my lungs out...head about to explode..
i was so scared..cause i always overthink..
it paranoia..
always happen to me..
questions..irritating questions that i can't solve..can't think of a solution..
i wanto know.. what the fuck is wrong..with me?with my parents?with my frends?
i dun know..i can't keep pretending..
i can't always put on a happy face..
i dun wanto lie to myself..
i just really cant do it anymore..
im sick of my life..
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really..i did try to be happy..but..i guess im just not cut of for it..
hais..