My post today is dedicated to the this year 2008...
Although its abit early, but i just wanto get it over and done with...

Happiness can be defined in many ways...
Happy because you have a new computer..
Happy because you talked to your best friend...
Happy because you did something good today...
Happy is a very basic word to use, people feel happy now and then...
I'm also happy today cause i finally found my purpose of life...
The reason that i should continue living..but the question is..can i?
For this whole year..
bad things have happened...
good things have happened...
Well, bad things like my "popo" died..
2 of my friends died...
my reluctance and stupidity of lying and unforgiving...
lost a few of my best friends due to my harsh and pettiness..
But god has also planned good things for me...
good things like..new friends...
my new vision...
and most impt of all, my purpose of existence...
I'm thankful...

Today i went for the course...
it was enlightening..
i was wearing my usual outfit..
my black sweater with skull on the back, my new cap, and old jeans...
my hat covered my eyes..then we had to pray...
not out loud but in our hearts...
i didn't know what to pray for, i just felt sad...
so i didn't pray...
then started the 2hr course..
i was dam lonely..cuz everyone i dunno..[i was psed]
we had to play ice breaking games...
and i looked DAM EMO...so this guy sat beside me said...
"you shldnt be so sad..you're god's creation, god made you so he would know how you feel..if you're sad, he'll be sad cause you didn't believe in him.."
so i was like huh?believe in him?wat has tat to do with my emotions..
so i just pretend i know and say o ok...and gave some fake smile..
after tat got break before service so i was planning to go home..cuz got psed..
then tat guy say.."i think you should stay for the service..it'll help.."
in my mind i was like, omg who is this guy why he keep following me...
then dunno why i stayed for the service...sat with a bunch of weird ppl that kept saying hi to me...
Then before i went home that guy appeared again giving me some letter thing tat was printed...he just shove it to me ask me read then ran off..
love letter?omg?im screwed..this is a church summore..
so i was like nvm..then went to bus stop..
saw 43...took it...
sat on the bus..saw the letter, i open...

Why Shouldn't Us,God's Creation Be Sad. And The Rules That We Should Oblige.
People shouldn't be sad because if we are sad, God would be sad as he can feel us all..We shouldn't be so selfish and only think of ourself and be sad but we should pray to God to take the sadness away from us and help us move on, in the end happiness would be within our grasp..Being happy is what we thrive for, its not our purpose of life but all of us are pursuing the same thing,Happiness.
[it doesn't look like it makes sense but i tried]
3 Donts of Life

-Dont Mutilate Yourself
Why should we destroy the beautiful artwork of God?Why give in to the devil and show your weakness?every cut you make is a sign of weakness, a sign of disbelieve..
[shorten]
-Dont Be Sad.
-Dont Be Unforgiving.
Everyone needs and seeks forgiveness.so why not give them the chance they need?they might change..
[shortened]

theres dam alot of things on this letter but i no scanner cannot scan...
sometimes i just want to help people you know..and i think..thats my purpose of life..to help people regardless of circumstances.. =]

Stand Up To Cancer


Never Give Up